the literary man from his clinging little wife.
It’s appropriate she thought that an intellectual
should fail to see the value that he saw in hearth and home.
But never do they look to see
the work she did
the love they had
Or how she must have borne the brunt
of his late nights with a candle
or electric lamp, it’s all the same
Or heard the mundane details of the office
that are left out of literary biographies
And offered him comfort
if only in food
or in small words
or in her body
The blame is made to go both ways
but far too often falls on her
She didn’t understand his work
Her needs were needy
Her children were hungry
and needed to be fed
And probably they needed a father
the way she needed a husband
who was there all the time
and loved her in deed
and not only in words
in words in words
But her children were his
And sometimes when he
was working late on that thing we all love
that so perfectly captures the age that he lived in
or going to lectures
only for men
Or perhaps later in time
she could have gained admittance
except for the other things
that needed to be done
Her work
Her life
Her intellectual life
that didn’t always mesh so neatly
And maybe she got angry
but she made the sacrifices willingly
And maybe he was grateful
but he didn’t say it often
But she knew
And she did it
because being without him
or with him on different terms
would hurt more
than
the lost opportunities
and the lost moments
Which nevertheless
didn’t quite outweigh
The love
That biographers
Never quite get right.
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